the vision is JESUS

"When God wants to initate a new movement in history,he does not intervene directly,but sends us dreams and vision that can,if attended to,initate the process"-Walter Wink

I found this quote on my friend Lile from Macedonia's blog (see people list).I i dont know who Walter Wink is but this quote touched my heart in a big way. God is giving me alot of dreams and visions at the moment which is pretty amazing. They are only forming and taking shape presently. they are dreams for my life personally, dreams for the church and dreams for the world. He is waking me in the night desperately trying to break my heart for the lost and i am being so stubborn, aware that it will change my life beyond recognition. He wakes me and tells me to be expectant, for what i dont know. it excites the very core of my being and engages with my soul in the most comfortable and yet uncomfortable of ways.

I want more of God more than anything else in the wolrd, in the universe but at the same time so much holds me back from everything that He is offering me. Do i really want everything the creator of the universe has to offer? that is entirely beyond comprehension, Habakkuk 3:6 says

"He stood and shook the earth;he looked and made the nations tremble. the ancient mountains crumbled and the age old hills collapsed. His ways are eternal"

God is massive and powerful and majestic and beautiful and so much more than i could ever possibley ever hope to imagine. Embracing him in the way i long to will turn my life upside down and make the wolrd's view of me change even more. It would make christians views of me change even more. I would become that weird chrsitian who is utterly sold out on the kingdom of heaven no matter what. I'm desperate to get to that place but at the moment i have alot of things that matter that are getting in the way.

All i can do for now is to continue to seek Him and pray He will continue to reveal his dreams and visions to me so that eventually i will come to that place of utter submission before Him as i see more and more of his beautiful plans and how i can play a part in His story.

pray

m x x x

Picking up speed...

Time seems to be speeding past so quickly here, nearly a month in. Feels like a year and a day all at once.
The past couple of weeks have been a haze of frantic business, trying to sort out exactly what i should be doing, praying and pestering people from work and my housemates so i can get to know them better - its realy quite exhausting but also alot of fun.

Freshers fayres have gone pretty well so far God has been faithful and we've been spreading the All Saints vibe around Southbank uni and London College of Communication. I have consumed a ridiculous number of sweets in the past few days and my spit has turned to syrup!

Things are happening and i'm getting excited.

In the middle of the night...

Currently we're running 24 hours of prayer at church primarily for the student ministry.

I really didn't think i'd be able to manage the 3.43am wake up call this morning to do the 4-6 shift, especially due to very little sleep as i was slightly on the excited slide and am battleling a cold.

Walking to church was really strange, the streets were completl empty apart from the odd postman. I felt like i had been sent out on a secret mission, there is something pretty special about the middle of the night and Jesus. it's like a top secret stratergy meeting or something -maybe i get a bit carried away!

Two hours sped past in the prayer room - God was taking me through 2 Timothy which is always fun.

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-control" 2Timothy 1:7

Southbank freshers fayre on friday...

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a few thoughts

Blogging has been slightly slow of late due to to massive upheaval of moving to Peckam and All Saints, sorry about that.

I love it here, i really really love it Peckham and London are fantastic and God is so so good. I've just finished two weeks staff training which has been brilliant and so useful in so many ways.The staff team are all lovely and a little bit nuts which i really love as i feel i dont have to pretend to be cool or grown up or anything like that. God has brought us all here because of who we are and the unique and beautiful giftings he has given us all. Did i mention i love jesus quite alot?! It's differcult to convey it all in a post and me and writing have never been great friends so i hope you can bare with me a bit.

Tomorrow i start the job for real and my emotions fluctuate between absolutely terrified and afraid that i absolutely cant do this to so so excited about God's plans and the things he has started to whisper to me about.

Yesterday i was introduced to portebello (sp?) road and i have to say i have never experienced anything like it and i am very much in love. London quite frankly is brilliant.

Praise Him

and i'm in

I'm here! house is lovely church is awsome God is totally amazing. love it!
Currently doing a couple of weeks of staff training before i'm let loose!
Absolutely shattered what with all the new people, places and things to remember.
Peckham is like another world -it's crazy but really really good and comforting in an odd way because i know it's where i'm meant to be.

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