No work today!

BANK HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Glad i got that out of my system!

Time for a little music rant i'm afraid folks....
Why is it that whenever I meet new people who are in to music it takes me forever to convince them that i know what i'm talking about?
I have a suggested answer - because i'm a girl and because i dont play the guitar.
It even took me months to originally get Tommy (my now trusty fellow gig-goer) to take me seriously way back at the beginning of uni.
Granted most gigs i go to the percentage of boys is far far higher than that of girls, in fact there have been few where i have been the only girl but that does not mean we girls dont love music as much.
I do like the novelty though.
Hmmm just got me thinking

James Blunt, what a ....

James Blunt is being played in the office yet again, there is only so much I can cope with!!

musing

What has happened to me? I’m currently sitting in the office singing along to James Blunt. It’s along way off from the dreams I had for this year - but I’ve still got that God feeling. It’s not what I had planned for myself but I keep catching myself grinning because God is so good.



Ps my apologies to all people leaving comments - finally worked out how to use my blog!!

Holy Spirit on the move

Hey

God's doing some pretty exciting stuff at church at the moment, Holy Spirit started moving big time on sunday. I wish i knew more about what He's doing but i don't. I'm just seeking after Him and enjoying it. I cant wait to see what happens...

The odd one out??

Last night i did the obligitory first night out with work, it was really good in alot of ways. It gave me a chance to get to know people a bit better, i was alot more relaxed outside of the office and was able to be myslf more than usual. I haven't been in a group where i am the only new person for a very long time. Straight after work in the pub was good cos loads of people were there and i was able to really chat. However as the group decreased and we moved on i was left feeling very very new.

It was a social situation which i didn't find comfortable at all. I'm not used to being the new girl. Conversations often seemed to stop when people found out i was a christian or the fact i was going to bible college. I think people simply dont know how to react to it, which is fine it just leaves conversation a bit dead. The first seeds are there though.

I hadn't appreciated just how tough london is going to be socially.

Radiohead

Saw Radiohead play at the Civic in Wolverhampton last night. They played a selection of old and new, have to say i'm excited by the new stuff. This was the sixth time i've seen them live and i'm very happy to say they are never a disappointment. Brilliant!

Setlist:
01 National Anthem
02 2+2=5
03 Bangers n Mash
04 Lucky
05 15 Step
06 Sail to the moon
07 House of Cards
08 I Might Be Wrong
09 Bones
10 Nude
11 Arpeggi
12 My Iron Lung
13 Where I End And You Begin
14 Climbing Up The Walls
15 How To Disappear Completely
16 Idioteque
17 There There
Encore 1:
18 Let Down1
9 Karma Police
20 Bodysnatchers
21 Everything In Its Right Place
Encore 2:
22 No Surprises

Absolute carnage

So saturday night was the end of year ball at uni. I went with this rowdy bunch - cant belive it's been nearly 4 years since we were in Nicholson E!!! It was an interesting night with a fair few dramas many of which i'm still trying to process. It is fair to say that alcohol was entirely responsible for wrecking the evening, don't get me wrong it was alot of fun but there were certainly a few traumas throughout the night!
At about 2.30 am when most people were on the way home i surveyed the remains of the union and just started crying (poor pringle had to put up with me). It was such a powerful picture of such emptyness and brokeness of the world we live in. The christians (including myself) let God down big time - it was if we just took a night off. It scared me alot, maybe we're on a bit of a sinking ship, sinking because we are doing absolutely nothing about it. I have the most amazing truth and answer to people's brokenness and yet who did i share it with on saturday?

x x x

Back again

hello blog fans

I have another new job - hurrah! working at the uni, its allpretty fun and i love being back on campus. I got a uni card yesterday and it said STAFF on it - i felt very grown up! simple things!

Feeling very peaceful at the moment, everything is going pretty fine and dandy. God is good amd i'm really enjoying my last few months in Hull without getting too upset and stressed about LOndon.

The long goodbye

steve me and ames are all leaving Hull this summer its so weird and is taking me such a long time to gt my head around. Last night me and the housemates threw steve a surprise leaving party. It was alot of fun an the house wasn't trashed - hurray for christians!! Bit gutted Steve didn't cry though!

Thought i would be more upset than i was - realised it wasn't because i dont love steveo and will miss him alot but because it is the first goodbye of many. It's just gonna get harder and harder - anyway steve will be back i'm sure. Although i wont be...

It's coming back!!!

There are rumours that there is going to be a one hour Spaced special at christmas. HURRAY!!

Work rest and play

The sermon Jeremy preached yesterday has really been on my mind. He was talking about how we have been created to work and that we should work hard and honestly and do it all for the Glory of God. My job quite simply is boring, it doesn't challenge me and i spend alot of the counting down the hours till home, or a tea break, or lunch.

People need their post collecting, breakfast ordering, letters typing so i should just get on and do it to the very best of my ability rather than waiting for my next break or time in the filing cupboard (when i can sing and no one can hear me ha ha!). It's time i started making every single second count for God.

I guess i'm just turning my hand to whatever comes my way - that's the very nature of temp work. Maybe i'll be waiting a long time to see God's promises for my life fufilled so its about time i stopped wasting my now.

xxxx

ps the boys were being annoying in the pub last night they said quiz machines were better than girls cos there was a straight yes or no answer with a quiz machine. i felt the need to blog about it.

mmm

Feeling at the moment like my life has been thrown up in the air and i just have to wait and see where God let's it fall. It's exciting but its also really hard not to try and make it fall where i'd like it to! Knowing a bit of the picture is enough for me at the mo and i have to keep reminding myself i dont need to see it all yet.

cryptic enough?

Feel the fear and do it anyway...

This weekend I'm going Bivvying with the youth group from church. Bivvying is basically me, Tommy, an ex-SAS man and a bunch of 14/15 yr old boys going out on the yorkshire dales and making our own shelters to sleep out in over night. I am so so scared!

It's going to be lots of fun though and i have to keep reminding myself that it will be worth it in the end!!

I've been thinking alot about fear recently - I'm reading a self help type book called 'Feel the fear and do it anyway'. Not because i'm particularly fearful person but because i found it in a charity sale for 50p! Alot of it isn't really applicaple to me cos they dont take Jesus into the equation but on the whole its full of pretty sensible advice. Its got me thinking about how the devil uses it as one of his most paralising weapons and yet what is it? Nothing.

Fear's a funny thing it stops me from doing some of the things i want to do most in the world. The biggest thing it stops me from doing is sharing the gospel and i can find no rational explanation for why what so ever. For years i have been trying to pin point exactly what it is that i'm scared of. I cant really find it. Christ has given me a spirit of boldness and not of timidity so i think it's high time that i started to feel the fear and do it anyway! ha ha

xxx

we are family

Being at home again after living away for so long is always interesting and definately not with out its fireworks!! Lots of readjusting needing to be done by most of us. The summer should be fun when i'll be home for longer than a weekend!!

This is a family photo from tenerife - squiff is a comedy genius!!

New Shoes

Bought these little beauies while on holiday. Made my first few days back at work so much better :)

holiday musings

Returned from Tenerife on tuesday night after a very restful family holiday. It seems odd to use the word restful and family in the same sentence, especially my mental family, but that is what is was. Plenty of time to read ('Life after God' - Douglass Coupland, 'Mere Christianity' - C.S Lewis and 'Sense and Sensibilty' - Jane Austen) ), sleep, annoy my brothers and think.

I had a lot of time to think, holidays are good for that. With all the thinking it finally hit me that i am actually going to be leaving Hull in just a matter of months. I simply wont be here any more. To be honest i got a bit mad with God - why does he want everyone else (nearly) to stay here and be part of this crazy thing and not me? Why hasn't He made a place for me here?
I know the answers (some of them) but it didn't stop me having a little moan and feel a bit sorry for myself. I am going to miss this place so much, it's my home and i'll have to be so careful not to leave my heart behind.

For now i'll lean not on my own understanding and trust Him. Trust that he has everything sorted, trust that he has a bigger and better plan for me, trust that the next bit will be the launchpad into the rest of my life with Him. An exciting and scary adventure with God - why would i want anything less?

Ps. Off to see Mogwai tonight, totally forgot about it, forgot about a gig?? things are changing...

Holiday!!

Going to Tenerife next tuesday with the family HURRAY.

Any suggestions for reading material?

leave comments please people...

Radiohead are touring again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Growing up?

Thinking i may be growing up a little bit. Went to a band night on wednesday, 4 bands, lots of noise and lots of indie kids. I went home early because i got bored. I got bored at a gig - WEIRD!!!! Its no longer enough to hold out hope that one of the local bands will prove to be the new Edibles (ie really really goood). It seems these days my bed is more appealing than listening to loud bad music. I'd rather pay a bit more to see a band i actually know and love.

Having said that last night i only ate pudding, two bowls of ice cream, cakes, sweets and lots of E numbers. Left me feeling sick and very hyper. Daniel Howard of course encouraged me all the way!

not a whole lot going on

Noit much to say at the moment. I have a new temp job which proving to be quite fun, at least it is giving me money!! i'm actually enjoying the routine, everyday i feel more like a grown up. God continues to astound and challenge me everyday...