Haircut!!!

Got my haircut today for the first time since september, it was in a bad way, had to take loads off the length cos the split ends were so bad! Felt so ashamed!! So now I have a trendy Toni and Gay hair cut, annoying fringe and all. Brilliant! Get my colour done later this week. It's as if i'm a real girl! And it's all for free cos i got a model cut (trainee). Praise the Lord!
Got a job interview next week to be a receptionist at a hairdressers in town, the question is can i be bothered to look this good every day? It would mean brushing my hair everyday!!!

hmmm

And so it begins again...

Yesterday was my last day at work - it was sad. Looking for a job again now.

Was filling in application form yesterday and one of the questions was "describe your religion..." I didn't really know how to describe mine. Got me thinking... All consuming, freeing, my life, infectious, challenging, life changing, eternity changing, the truth, love, hard at times, joyful, breath taking, empowering, humbling, beautiful or simply an endless journey towards Christ.

In the end i just wrote 'Christianity'. Thinking now i should have made the most of it - the list would have gone on and on, some one may have got saved. It was for a job i probably wont get anyway. bummer.

you gotta have faith

I'm being challenged alot by God at the moment about my lack of faith in Him. My faith seems to fade away when things don't work out the way that i want them to, even though i know that His way is infinately better than my own. I loose it when i dont get a job i think would be perfect for me or when some one i've been praying for for what feels like ever doesn't turn up at Alpha or when the stupid benefit people mess up and i have to pay them money.

What is 'living by faith'? i know it's something that i want to be able to do. Hebrews 11:1 says 'faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see'. I am sure of what i see and i cross my fingers for what i hope for! This is not what i am called to do though. How do i have faith in what i feel i cant be sure of?

I think the key is the word feel. My faith in God should not be based on my own feelings and emotions but on His word and on His promises.
Why do i think God won't fufill His promises to me? It's crazy!! I know Him, i know His character and i know His truths, why would He let me down?

I am simply going to have more faith. I'm going to step out in to it - i'm going to pray for healing for people. God's showing me things i need to do, things which scare me. I'm going to have the faith to do them...

The mighty humber bridge

I love Hull very much but i wish there were more jobs here. I got told yesterday that they only want me another week at work, bummer. So i'm looking for work again. It's teaching me so much about trusting God - having faith that he will answer my prayers and provide for me even though it more than likely wont be in my timing!! we were talking last night in alpha about having faith to believe that God will answer our prayers. It really challenged me to have faith to trust him to sustain me and provide a job for me while i am still here in Hull.

xxx

just a modern rock song

So last night was the Belle and Sebastian gig in Sheffeild - beautiful beautiful stuff. We were right at the front, i mean front row. It was a shame that Tommy reay wasn't with us but it meant we could go right to the front without being in anyone's way. We didn't get squashed nd there was room to dance. belle and sebastian fans are so polite! The set itself was stonking, brilliant combo of old and new, some to dance to and some to mull over. Jonathan David was a personal highlight, a song based on a friendship like that of Jonathan and David from the old testament, i always like a bit of bible in a song!! The gig has firmly wedged itself in my all time top five. mind you belle and sebastian could probably blow into a paper bag and i'd be blissfully happy!
Got a comment posted on thier website if your interested check out http://www.belleandsebastian.com/qa.php?about=tours&show=latest

If you have no idea who belle and sebastian are please buy the new album 'the life persuit' and educate yourself. you deserve it.

sick of being sick

Being ill really really sucks, this is now my forth day of it and i'm very very bored. had to take the day off work today which means that not only am i feeling poo but i'm missing out on a days wage :(
My head feels like its full of cotton wool, i'm unable to think straight and i keep sneezing. I'm refusing to let it beat me though. I desperately want to get better by thursday as I'm off to see the mighty Belle and Sebastian. So so excited, i've been waiting years for this moment and i'm not gonna let the flu beat me!!

Missing alpha to go to the gig but taking a lad from alpha with me so i think that makes it ok, we can have a mini alpha in the car on the way.

so your prayers please people

music

Ever discovered some beautiful music and played it over and over and over and over till it just goes round and round your head until eventually you get so sick of it you can never listen to it again? just me? answers on a post card or in the comments section...Today i have discovered Regina Spektor and i think i'm a little bit in love. Check out the track 'us' on her myspace page.

Discovering new music is one of my most favourite things in the world, it makes me so happy and a little bit warm inside.
I love God for inventing it, what an amazing way for us to be able to express ourselves to Him.

"The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, He will rejoice over you with singing" Zephaniah 3:17

Imagine what God's music is like? Mindblowing i would suggest.

x x x

There's something about thursdays

Always seem to post on thursdays, interesting. Things today have been good, put on my armour this morning and went in prepared for the fight. God open loads of doors and conversations today at work, it was pretty amazing, again it makes me realise how much i underestimate Him. It's not dependant on me but on Him - thank goodness!! Shame i'm leaving work in a few weeks.

My job comes to an end soon so it's time to start the great job hunt again. I really really really dont want to back on the dole, really really dont. I know a job shouldn't define me but it does a little bit and so much more than benefit does. Also i get bored and sleep to much. i like the active loosing weight without trying me that comes with working!

Tom if you're reading this SEND ME MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT!!!!! NOW!!!! that is an order from your bossy older sister, listen to me or next time i see you i will slam your fingers in a door.

point made??