you gotta have faith

I'm being challenged alot by God at the moment about my lack of faith in Him. My faith seems to fade away when things don't work out the way that i want them to, even though i know that His way is infinately better than my own. I loose it when i dont get a job i think would be perfect for me or when some one i've been praying for for what feels like ever doesn't turn up at Alpha or when the stupid benefit people mess up and i have to pay them money.

What is 'living by faith'? i know it's something that i want to be able to do. Hebrews 11:1 says 'faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see'. I am sure of what i see and i cross my fingers for what i hope for! This is not what i am called to do though. How do i have faith in what i feel i cant be sure of?

I think the key is the word feel. My faith in God should not be based on my own feelings and emotions but on His word and on His promises.
Why do i think God won't fufill His promises to me? It's crazy!! I know Him, i know His character and i know His truths, why would He let me down?

I am simply going to have more faith. I'm going to step out in to it - i'm going to pray for healing for people. God's showing me things i need to do, things which scare me. I'm going to have the faith to do them...