Indecision...

At the moment I am having to make a lot of choices and decisions about my life and the way i would like it to take and the way in which i want to spend the next few months especially. There appears to be no right or wrong answer at the moment and i am just being left with decisions which will have no ethical consequence and ultimately wont even necessarily effect my life hugely in the long run (well who knows where they will lead actually). Just might make the next year or so be unbelievable or suck in lots of different ways.

Man they are the hardest kind of choices to make, not knowing which way it could turn. At every other cross road in my life God has pointed out my way so clearly. i have been longing for him to do the same this time but He doesn't appear to be doing so. i get the feeling that he is simply telling me i can make a choice, its up to me. Its getting quite late now and my options will be seriously limited if i don't start making some decisions. I'm feeling like Frankel - this must be how he lives his entire life!

I'm 95% sure of what i'm going to do and the next few days will make it actually happen or not so prayers for God to show up if it's not right would be good. Its time to take a deep breath and to go for it absolutely blind trusting with every inch of me that He is good what ever happens and where ever I end up.

its so scary but in an extreme sports kind of way.
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